Long Drive Ahead

It's hard to read it and take it in
Go tit for tat, fuck up something that might've been good and hope,
God lets you go back and relive it
Maybe change a few aspects of which at first you didn't
Exactly take into account when you're in the eye of the storm, I call those Physics
I know you read into my tagmemics, you don't have to dumb anything below
My collegiate reading level, I'm sure I'll get it after I'm done with my marijuana dose
Who am I joking ? -- I haven't smoked since December
When the same insane girl I called last night;
Was pulling the same stunts in 2007's early winter
God forgive her, I can't be mad at what she's doing
It's wrong for me to lash at her when I deserve all the bullshitting;
Rewind... scratch that line
Six years before these events, Liz said everything comparable to her sentence
After Micah was considered a miscarriage at the prenatal clinic
Another story for another timeline, believe me when I say I believe you
Or how I know you may think these signs are superficial
But I told there was a reason God wanted me NOT chill that day, & just write
And that's all I need to confirm segregated parts of the past plotlines

Let me explain.

I only downward trend to backing away when things don't unfold,
How I'd seen in the premonitions
Dreaming awake, an ex is an ex for a reason -- I call them superstitions
But when a heart breaks it takes time to recover
No matter how much you try to mend it together, it cracks everytime reminiscing;
Over that past lover, but still she sees I'm too nice... fuck her
Kindness isn't weakness --
It's my way of tallying down how many times you can fuck up
I mean, future, maybe I could luck into a school of thought that I spontaneously
Dawn upon, that doesn't adhere to anything that COULD go wrong
I avoid picking your brain due to the fact I doesn't feel right when not obligated
This is prelude material, and we're not in love -- so why fake it ?
You don't recognize the word, and I just can't place it
Labels are so cliche', and what I deserve is something I haven't felt in ages
So when I believe you, take that for granted; fine
Just remember two ways clash on a one-way street;
So you're either in the passenger seat or sitting two cars behind
Checking blindspots, & flashing lights
When we both have issues that need to be dealt with & deadened

Before we BOTH start looking alive.