About Complete pt. 3

Then again...

I can't begin believing you, everything can be lies when I lead with you
Used to be trump for that silly ass month,
now you're a card I can't see myself dealed to
I used to think shit could've worked, after my single spurt and all of the bullshit aside
One that I could've seen myself working with in a different light
But dreams of late have had an about face to the ones I dreamed of you
Now it's about you cussing me out,
running around fucking every nigga I know in sight
Surely I could be colorblind everything either black and white
Considered to swallow my pride . Then
a grey area came into light, now everything looks like a blurred up clue
Then my Ms. came back, and she said she wasn't having that
She loves me so much since my first attempt,
she says no other bitch can have me back
Or look at my back in the same way, the vacancy sign turned into a main stay
Even though we cuss and fight and I feel sometimes like ending my life... She
makes me believe I have something to provide
Until I fade away, be it the cigarettes or bullet strays
Or knifes in my back that were aimed my way, who is to tell ? I'm
too fluent to yell at what's become of these days
So sorry if you think it was in jest, sorry if your heart beats inside of your chest
Wishing to leave and run to a man that has no intentions of keeping the peace

I've began to wake up in my bed lusting for something new to explore
Since I know the one I used to love can't reciprocate it anymore
'Cause the smiles turn to screams and love turns to war
On the battlefield setting I've been accustomed to before
It's hard to think this lady wasn't keeping a secret
When all I ever saw was her setting plots up for the visitors
With all love lost, and only Ms. Depression to gain
It's obvious this year is acting like the two prior same...