Closer To Complete pt. 2

Drinking brought out my demons, two weeks ago
I wouldn't ever thought my forearms would have such a frequent hold...
I saw a mold of a man I used to be, as I reread
How did I let this person inside my head when I had begun fantasies of old
You know... the same ones your parents put on panoramic screens
Like we were all made to believe... Soul
mates just on four dates, everything we couldn't be
I know everyone makes mistakes, but really how hard would it be;
To foresee the actions you have no sudden recollection of efficiently?
I swear to whatever God that I wish she'd be out of my mind. Isn't
that how the saying goes?
As long as she's out of my sight... just a god with a pen in plainer clothes
They always thought they knew me best, well they could remove their stress
By wishing away the thoughts of me, I swear I wish she knew me less
Or I knew you more, or something you adored enough to not lie to anymore
But that died along with your shrouded avenue I used to love to explore
But I could ignore that route, I'm sure plenty have taken that path
When all I'd do is doubt any and everything we seemed to ever have
Let me finish this a tad bit later...
Sometimes I pick up the phone, listening in on the messages to laugh
Just recently they were erased because I couldn't see myself taking a chance

Ravishing her with all the amenities every girl wants
Since when did friends become enemies?... Only
when a different outlet is sought
With a plug that used to be a perfect fit just hours before
Gets convoluted and screwed into shapes he can't recognize anymore
It's hard to believe that door won't open anymore
When it opened up on a daily basis before
It's hard to believe my feet keep moving
When my body doesn't feel like it's been moving along...

Then again...