Something I'm Not Good At

Nowdays I can't even look into her eyes without feeling guilt
Nowdays I can't even look into her eyes without her tears being spilled
No one cries over spilled milk
But I guess so when it happens over the course of a relationship killed
I have good reasons, just don't want to mouth them
I had bad reasons, but sometimes I just don't want to hear them
With her hands tied, I figured I could get away walking
No looking back with two decisions in my hand trying to weigh out the option
Figure they could just auction her off, I didn't want her after that shit
Don't get me backwards...
If I did want her I wouldn't have said I loved her so
In that case, I wouldn't have hoped the love would grow
But when the money sink begins to start working, and it's killing your funds
In time... people choose to find someone else to drain out their funds
In time, she chose to miss me then lie about sums
When all I ever wanted was to hear her not lie about some