Piece By Peace

I'm losing my mind each tick of the clock's movement
If it's going to happen, stop teasing, just let me lose it
It seems foolish, but when you're me and been through each corner of the room
At least a dozen times pacing, insanity begins to consume
I can't even feel you, reality doesn't screen fools
I can't see you, only in shades of grey, in light what else becomes true?
I only raise my voice when I begin to speak to them
It never happens the way I predict it, I always speak THROUGH them
In time, music seems pointless, it's all the same
What tune will the beast be soothed in, in six years, hasn't one miniscule changed
I only talk to myself so I can further elaborate
How do I voice so much PAIN?
This is a war that I'm finally losing, that's funny
Maybe Hell is what I'm FINALLY pursuing, none of you ever really loved me
You all just wanted to take myself from me
Selfish masses, it takes much practice to make one of my descent feel bummy
The skies are on a hot streak, but in my vision none are sunny
The ground is cracking, a staple when my feet feel clumsy
Maybe the knife should've taken soul, that fateful last lifetime suddenly
So I wouldn't have to contemplate taking my own life from me