Reciprocal

I guess I lied a tad, don't label me yet
I said I would write to you, and when you read this... you don't have to write back
I remember in 3rd grade with my first crush, I was dumb shy
Though I was dumb fly, when a girl gave me butterflies I didn't know how to react
And through the years, I still had a problem coping
Hoping that one day my father could clearly explain my emotions
After six years of being heartbroken, I collected the ways of the wicked
In such a timely fashion, most would think I was a work of Poe's latest fictions
Or they were appalled at how quick they were mastered
They way I could break hearts with ease;
Then laugh when women called me a bastard
That shit didn't really factor, I thought it was a game
And whenever fury erupts, those faded memories become as clear as the next days
So when I say what I feel, most times misdirection is present
Past imperfect, and I still revel in my ego -- my exes call me arrogant
It fits in certain sections, in other places I'm growing out of the word
And when YOU came along, you were nothing I deserved
But one minute after the next, primal instincts kicked at me
You are my high, never wanting to succumb to the gravity
The things you say, make them easy to place
I don't care what the words are, every syllable reads as if you'll stay
No lies, and may I never forget your face -- don't hide
Because in due time, I'll be to the track in the RIGHT; and I'll be down for a ride
No guilt involved ever, events happening before the storms I want to be in
Are nothing but actors holding notes with only dramas written
So when PSA was read, and things were realized
I hadn't spoke to anyone but you those early April-shower nights
Because when a title is given, and I'm subject to it
Everyone else is erased, I'm a clever dude...
Doesn't keeping hoes around SOUND stupid?
Whatever I said I meant it, but don't ever act sly
Saying my words wouldn't have the same effect if it wasn't the same guy
Because truthfully we see eye to eye
And I still make your soul twitch when your phone rings, to my surprise
Your eyes light up, at least like the sunrise
I haven't said it in a while, fuck the short-term of my mind
So in this present time, sorry for the misdirected anger I portrayed
Let me rephrase; I still love YOUR soul to this day